5/22/15

1st baby born .

On 19 may 2015 , Jamie Toh was born. She was 2.865kg. Wad a big sized baby. She was very guai. I went in d deliver suit ard 1pm+ n delivered her at 3.20pm.
Morning ard 9+ d pain already started n it jus gets more n more pain n getting closer each time!! About to labour d pain was unbearable, it feels like u r goin to poop but it's a very big poop dat nid a lot of strength to push it out !! If there were camera in d suit I really wanna look at d playback as how I managed to gave birth. It must b very terrifying to c it .
After delivered I was able to c Jamie n she didn't cry when I carry her !!

1st day home n she is still adapting d new environment . But she still can eat a lot !! D day b4 we discharged she can eat up to 1 1/2 bottles of formula !! Wow big eater !! Same as her dad! Like father like daughter !! Wahahaha

On 21 may finally I hav milk to feed but it's jus too little to feed. I will try my best to giv her more !! I found out when I was about to bath at nite n I was very happy n I told hubby about it ! Tmr I shall breastfeed Jamie !! Feels so anxious about it !!

5/14/15

心灰意冷

Seriously I really dun understand or know how it happened. How can u add someone on fb n u won't noe. Seriously . Plus both r gals ?! Is dat even possible ?!! Yes I dun believe it cus I can't do it so I dun believe it am I wrong wif dat ? Ask u to show me n u said ' if u dun trust me den dun talk to me' ! Am I in d wrong ? Dun talk jiu dun talk. Seriously when I nid someone who is there for me ? No one. So ?! How u wan me to trust u ? U oso nvr care for wad I nid when I'm pregnant. U jus wan d baby. Maybe jus maybe after giv birth I will leave . Since tis is d only thing u wan  den I will leave it to u. I can b alone .