Who d fuck do u think u r ? So wad if ur sis bf is tis store rm?! Dun mess wif me hor! Knn

my feelings

this few days keep goin out n hav fun . went out outing wif huiqi, ivyn and kaisheng. meet in d morning n huiqi was late cus of traffic jam. after meeting at cwp we went to 888 to hav our brunch. after dat all went home to take our things n went to haw par villa . after dat went to nex to hav our dinner n after dat we went to 888 fairprice to buy some beer n snacks to slack at ivyn hse. after slacking den we all went home as all hav to work but im d luckiest as i work in d evening. tis few days i keep drinking n i used up all my money n i had to lent frm my mum. really bad. had failed my exam n i cant continue my study as my result is really very poor . hope i can get to higher nitec without waiting for 1 yr . really hope i can !!!

D scar

Tis scars will always remind me of how stupid I am on dat day! I will nvr forgets

24 nov 2013 i will nvr forgets about u !

i will nvr forget about tis day whr i got d scars on my arm !
d scars are awful n i dun like it ! i really dunno y am i so stupid n use d tong to put d metal thing in d oil in d batch cook vats ! im so so so stupid !! i will nt forgive myself for being so stupid ! hope d scars will disappear but i will always remember it on my heart !

Working m3 n boom again

I scream or shout doesn't mean I'm really angry or wad jus dat I nid to let out some of my angers, I will b fine after dat. Seems like it isn't d 1st time u saw me tis way n I really hav to learn to control dat. I should n I will! Jus learnt how to drawer change n do some of d service. Nt bad nt dat hard but I really dunno y LP said its hard?! Quite easy nt dat hard at all. Maybe I will get wad she mean nxt time as I didn't get d full stress nw. But even if I do I dun think it will be hard on me haha. Seems like quite a lot managers dun like LP. Haha

25 anniversary amk

Late for work n I took cab dwn waste money again. I was in d kitchen before goin to d DK . Didn't go for break when working n after work went dinner wif LP, Mery, huiqi n Doris. D event was okie but a lot of attachment staffs. Looks crowded frm outside. Took some pics but nt using my fone. Saw his family n they seems nt to look at me or talk to me even d baby. Hmm okie... Fine.... Haha..

Lonely ba

feeling lost

i feel so lost. i really dunno wad to do or wad can i do ! i noe dat keep on running away is nt a solution. i hav to go bak to sch n hav a normal life again ! i noe dat jus dat i really dun wish to do those things again n again . i felt like i dun wan to do all these things again .. i dun wan to study,work or stay home . i wish i hav lots of money so  i can run away from home run away from this play to other place whereby no ppl noe me or a place i dunno to live. i wanna start a new life ! if only i can . really dun wish to stay here n remember all those sad things dat had happened to me tis few months . i really cant take it. no one can help me even myself . all those r important but i jus dun wan to do it . i dunno la . lost in my own world le. hope i can get out of it soon , it had to be fast as it goin to d end of d year soon, exams coming real soon and i didnt even started on d revising. yeah nid to start revising ......

Guys r d same??

All guys are d same. Tot dat he would like me but I was wrong. I'm d one maybe or I just Dun wan to be left alone? I dunno. Maybe I'm too lonely Dats y. I should get used to tis feeling as No one will stay by ur side forever or even awhile. Understand.

When they noe u they will keep on talking to u but when they noe new gals they will change their attitude towards u. Or maybe I'm Nt even worth. Maybe.... maybe..

Do I really like him? He is d 1st guy that I'm comfortable wif. I can be myself when I'm wif him but I dun think I like him. I only noe dat I can find him n talk if I hav any problem. Hope he will keep his mouth shut of wad I had told him. 

Managing service area. Handling customer

Tis is my 1st time managing service area after being a manager. I'm panic n scare I will do things wrong or did something dat is nt suppose to do. But lucky I'm still okie with it. Things went okie but I feel stress when they keep on calling for manager n I can't help to do anything. I did try to help to solve some of the problems. Don't have enough ppl to do tis n dat making me a hard time n others oso. 1st time managing a angry customer as wanted to order a large coke but he had queued at the food collection area n he keeps can't get his order ordered. He was very angry. I didn't did a good job in tis part as I study service n yet I'm nt doin a good job in tis. Really d 1st time contacting wif real ppl n real situation. Hope the next time I will do a better job!!!! I find it interesting to work as a manager le as it is more challenging. Haha . Had learnt how to change CO2 tank as I wanted to learn it long time ago. I will ask. More questions now. Alvin oso said I'm playful. Haha. 

Went out for movie

Went out for a movie wif Ivyn for d 1st time. He went to buy iPhone 5c den went to buy fone cover n screen protector. After dat we went for d movie insidious chapter 2.

Thinking too much

U think too much liao la. Who do u think u r?  He is his a fwen to u. Dun even think about it. Dun wish to let it happen again. I really can't take it

Lost interest?

Maybe I had lost interest in study. Keep on dun Feel like Goin school but Just few more months n I will be Goin to higher nitec. Maybe I'm Just too Lazy. Tmr I will wake up n go school de

After so long nw I'm starting to watch my shows again. Long time nvr watch my dramas le. Feel so good . Even though I noe there is something missing but I will find something to do or think of something to make it okie. =) 

Weird dream

Dream about him n we had sex n I ask him about her age. O.o siao sia

My dream

I dreamed about him again. Tis time I was laying beside him n I ask him is he wif serene den I dunno wad he said weekdays n weekends. After dat I awake. -.- maybe I still can't forget about him. Still nid some time to forget about him .

8/9/13

Went for a drinking session wif Amy,ks,Ivyn,nh me. Ks was d 1st to dwn. He keep vomiting ard d place n Ivyn had to clean d place. He was very pekcey . Keep asking ks to sit up all dat. He even hit him on d face. Very scary but we had fun after all. Maybe next time we can hav tis session again after some time. I oso vomited quite a lot. True dat after vomiting I feel btr. Even injured my leg. Ks lost his cigg n Ivyn injured his face. Nh a bit gone case but still can manage to bring me n Amy home. After reaching hm I went inside room n sleep. 

Will be getting promote on d 16 sept to FM haha. Dunno how much will d pay be, help I can manage it well . Jus nw he shake hands wif me to congrats me suddenly feel like hugging him. I noe he isn't mine any more. 2person getting promote . 

My dream

Y would I dream of u ? Y would I remember my dream? Last time I won't dream about u or remember anything about my dream. Weird sia. I dreamed about I was watching tv n u sit in front of me n accompanied me watch tv when u alr very tired n fallen asleep den I said we go sleep ba when about to go into d room his mum was in d kitchen we didn't noe she was bak n she bought fwens along . Looks like aunty soo eng n aunty Susan . We were go into d room hugging each other . Very sweet n seems so real to me. Isit I miss him too much dat I dream of tis or its a random dream? I dunno. Suddenly feel so warm to c tis familiar face in front of me n being sweet to me. Hope it will really happen in life. Will it? Doubting ...

They went out for a date! Still say will ask me to go for a movie instead of me u find her! Ya . I reminded u ma. Good lo. Last long !! U happy can liao

Everything end on 16/8/13

It would be easy for u cus u alr gav up. I would nid some time to get bak up. I nid  u to support If can. Pls Dun treat me differently. We can be fwen!  Best fwen Maybe?  Haha. I will change to a better me. Will u support me? 

He said he will support me as a fwen. I noe dat he has a her jus dat dun wanna tell me. I long noe jus didn't make a sound. Until u said break up for d second time as u wanna be wif her. U said u won't be in a relationship for awhile but when I receive ur msg it giv me a feel dat u had her better den me n when I ask whr had I done wrong or nt doin well u said nth. Because u jus wanna break so u say everything is ur fault. Well as u promise to giv me a hug at Taiwan so we will c how things work ba. Hope we can be tgt again... Hoping.. 

15/8/13

Y tis thing again? Y u keep wanna break up? Y can't wait until after we come bak frm Taiwan den say? I tot we agreed on dat?? Y ? I jus dunno y! 

6/8/13

Finally can go his hse, slept well beside him. Jus like to sleep tgt . Make me feel very safe when I'm wif him, 

2/8/13

He came dwn to amk n waited me to end work . After dat we went for dinner n movie n he sent me home. After sending me home he walked home. We watched gain n pain . We ate teppayaki . It's more like a date den normal things we do. I love it . =) hope to get more of this, haha. 

Rejected twice for nt letting me goin his hse plus when I ask him things n can say nth. Ya la . Wif other gal can talk a lot ma wif me very boring Liao. I noe u dun like me is I'm d 1 keep pestering u ma. If u dun wan me just tell me again! I won't ask for it again! Makes me so angry !!!,! 

19/7/13

After breaking for d 4th day we went dinner tgt. I still love him but jus dat we r nt couple anymore . I jus dun like d feeling la. I wan u bak. Although is jus an hour of his time I really enjoy it! Still can say buy me a bear day is ur size . When I heard it I really can't tahan n cried it out. He said dat one of d aunty frm wdlm had passed away tis morning n ltr he is goin to pay respect to her. I said I can wait but he insist me nt to . After so long u oso nvr send me hm le. When we stared tgt u always send me hm de. Okie la u no time ma. Okie... Ya I only think about myself , if u didn't say will I noe how u feel!?   =(((( 

15/7/13

Isit really come to d end ? I dun wan tis I dun wan !! 

Said to meet me for dinner ind end didn't. Went out to hav fun wif fwen. Wanted to MSG u oso like can't den dun msg lo. 1day didn't c u alr still like dat.... Nvm......

Can't breathe

These few days I can't breathe properly . Went to c doc n d doc said its due to stress but I didn't hav any stress at all!! 

Ytd 29/6 went to Joey's N6 concert. It's really fun though I dun noe some of d songs but I really enjoy! =) 1 more week to sch reopen. Nt bad dat I had pass my cs n hoping other modules for next term will be fine for me. =) gotten 3.4GPA for d 1st 4 modules . Jiayou for another 4more!! 

On 13/6 actually wanna celebrate his bd wif him but he choose to go bak work as he said its important . After work we went bowling wif CW,Christ,LP. I think LP nvr play bowling before she keep aiming d drain. Cm n CW was playing curl ball n they r happily playing n they gotten d technic on playing curl ball. After playing 2 games n we went hm. I didn't go his hse. Next day went to his hse before meeting Christ for d concert . Used nh red bag to put my things n nj brown bag to d concert. Before I went to his hse I went to d bank to bank in d money dat ITE gave. ($750) hopefully can get it by tmr so I can get him a watch =) after meeting Christ , we went to bishan to hav our dinner . After dat we went den to d indoor stadium. It's fun at d concert . Most of d songs I dunno how to sing but I really enjoyed d concert n the time wif them !! After d concert we all went hm . Cm n I went bk for supper den went bak to his hse. Slept for 2-3hrs n we nid to go dwn to lavender to take d tickets for d coach he booked. We reached genting is about 3.40pm. He said lucky we r late if nt we nid to wait but after all we oso reach late n book in late. He said no diff. After reaching there it's cooling . After I unpacked my stuff n we took a nap before dinner. After dinner we went to play bowling . We had 3games of bowling. It's fun. After bowling we went to Starbucks for a drink n slack a while. After dat went bak to hotel n bathe den I sleep for about 2-3hrs before d movie starts . After movie we went bak to sleep . He said he didn't sleep well in d hotel n I disturbed him n nt letting him rest. I didn't noe dat he won't sleep on d bus if nt I won't disturbed him . Alr 1 day nvr c him le...... Miss him ... 

Ask me to go his hse at 1am . I'm here n he is still wif his fwens setting n happily chatting without remember I'm here waiting. Should wait n c wad time u will remember dat u had a date wif me . Jus wait !!

Ytd quarreled wif him. I kept said dun wan to meet him. But still did meet him . When I met him, he was busy talking on d fone n msg-ing . I noe he is busy wif work but I really felt sad. Cs paper was quite easy but I felt dat I got a lot of questions r wrong. Hope I can pass my paper. When movie after dat , watch hang over part 3 quite nice n quite funny. Went to his hse after dat n he made me milo when I said I was hungry. We even make out after dat. Haha. He said after so long cfm got a lot. Haha. In d morning I didn't went out wif him , I stay at his hse while he went to work. I went to open his drawer n I saw I lots of letter from fwens n ex. WT n him even plan to hav a baby tis yr . Am I really I third party? Did I do wrong? His mum oso dun like me. 

BD celebration for cm

Morning didn't go work n stayed hm . Staying hm is boring n I texted him n he said something like serve me right. I didn't reply him his msg n he texted me to ask me out for lunch. After eating he said wan to watch movie but in d end oso nvr watch any movie. Went to his hse n waited for his family members to be home to eat dinner n celebrate his dads bd. after eating lunch at about 4+pm I can't eat any more at d dinner. He told me he is goin for a drink wif his bro n fwens when I said I wanna go n he shouted NO!!! Dun wan me to spoilt ur fun right I noe. Got pretty. Girls at there ma . U can enjoy all u wan !! 

A gift from him. He bought it from Korea. A bottle of perfume n a jar of face mask. 

31/5/13 honors day evg.

getting certificate in evg for d last time . I was so nervous dat my both of my hands r so cold! 1st time it happened to me like tis! 2day he came bak to SG le . Goin out to meet him soon. After 5 days nvr c him alr , ltr I wanna hug him =)

Finally!!

Using FaceTime to chat when he is at Korea. 2days nvr c him n I use tis to c him n hear his voice. =) tis is d only way to c n hear him.

2nd time dinner wif his family.

26 may 2013  went to his hse for dinner before he fly off to Korea. I reach his hse about 6pm . I was scare to meet his family but 2day I dun feel so scare after chatting wif his sis. His sis was a teacher, tuition teacher... We ate steamboat for dinner n after dinner I help to wash up all the things. I didn't cook anything so I have to do something to make myself useful. Haha. Hope they won't like me.... I feel like his mum dun like me , every time we met she won't smile at me..... So scary.  

They went management meeting n after meeting they went into Malaysia for massage n dinner. He sits very near to her. If I nvr c I won't do any thing now saw le ..... Makes me so angry!

Waiting list

1. Last on d list again. U ask me out but ended up u wif them. Next time jus dun ask me any things dats u can't cfm. Really hate d feeling

Upset over u

Jus wan to meet u oso so difficult. Whr got fair if only when u free den find me? When I nid u , whr r u? Really feel tired of it le. Feel like I'm a part time girl friend to u like I'm worthless. Feel so upset. Been crying for 2days le..... U said wan to meet up for a movie ite u wif them until very late. Wan go ur hse to acc u oso hard. I really dunno how le.

Panda

U place my gift n her gift tgt? Meaning we both r important to u? Or u jus dunno whr to put n any how put wif hers? Shouldn't hav gav it to u to make myself upset. No point......

Complaining

We nvr talk much 2day as he work until 11plus den we went out to eat wif Kel,jas n CW at Yishun. Our only private time was on d cab when there are no others was ard. I rest on his shoulder but I nvr share wif him my things. Wish to spend more time that but he is very busy . D more time I spend wif him he will feel more tired as he had worked for so many hours n still mid to entertain me n get lesser of rest too. I really dunno how or wad to do. I jus wanna spend more time tgt. D only time we can spend time tgt is to go to his hse but sometimes we dun even got time to chat n u hav alr alseep. I run like d way u looked at her. It's different when u look at me. I dun like dat. U even nearly forgotten about me n I was like siting there wait n wait n wait. They went in to look for u n nvr inform me dat u all had ended d meeting . I was like a dumb dumb jus to wait for u to end n go hm tgt . Making me cry when I think of tis. Am I doin d right thing??  I really dunno.

mistake

ytd i was doin expeditor, lp was doin line2 alone. i  a few orders from line 2 and i was calling for product from her line. i dunno if she can hear me or nt, waited for 400s my product mc dbl still nt out yet n d customer was like waiting for nth. there are 2 persons at line 1 n no one help her to do her products . all her products are all jammed ! after shouted for d 2nd time i lost all my patience n i shouted really loud in d counter area . i called line 1 to help her to do her products as i nid the products. i noe my tone was harsh cus all my orders are all red n everyone was waiting for me to give them product to settle d orders. nxt time i hav to be more patience n i hav to communicate more instead of shouting for it. i had learnt my mistake from this event.