why are you rushing back? why do you think that he will leave his friends to accompany you home? do you think he still care? do you think he still love you? please don't be stupid any more.

i rushed to buy you a gift and wish you could go home with me is because i wanted to see the happy face when you saw the gift but it's ok that you don't care.

i know im just a nobody. i will just stay as nobody. i wont do anything more then that.

Few days ago I saw his text says hey baby to other Gal. I noe its nt d 1st time he text other gals but I jus cannot take it .  Maybe dats d reason y I can't sleep when I'm here . 

tahan ba~

dun hav the urge to quarrel n talk to u anymore. isit i had change? i noe u had change long time ago. u nvr look at me the same way u used to look at me. u nvr talk to me d way u used to talk to me. idk wads wrong with both of us nw. u keep goin out to look for gals n left me alone at home while i nid u d most. goin to be father of 2 yet nw u wan go separate ways. of cus u wan nah . dun hav to take care those 2 ma. u only wan to play den y from the start u wan to form a family with me n now throwing me aside? im really feeling upset to see u this way. we used to be so close. after we had a family everything change . after zw came in things got more worse den ever! he keeps jio u out for drink n dats when more things happened. am i really hav to endure all this shit? do i really hav the courage to face  wad u had done outside? can i really carry on like nth happened? idk either. i do hav feeling too fyi. u can talk to others so gentler yet so violent towards me. am i really a person for u to bully? i really wan n wish i hav the courage to walk away n dun care about anything to u but i jus dun hav d heart to do it. i may hav d thinking but i jus dun wan to leave cus i noe this is jus d beginning of our life. i noe we can walk through this hard time tgt but u keeps hurting me n pushing me away , i really don't know how long more can i really tahan. hope i can tahan longer den i think.  

Always d unwanted one. Any gal will be btr den me . I'm jus a nobody . Anyone can play wif me . Thanks 

lesson learnt

No one in this world will always treat you like princess or prince forever. I once believe you will change for me but i don't think so now. I once believe love but now where are there? I will love myself more from now on cause no one will really care. 

Once i wish to enjoy every moment with my love but they never really want to spend time with me. Maybe i'm too sticky. i will spend more time with myself then with you.

I once want to enjoy the view of sunset and sun raise with the one i love but he was too busy with his life and after we broke up he brought his new girlfriend to enjoy the things i wanted so much. 

Current one. I told him i wanted to go eat something new yet he was there with his friend enjoying the food i wanted. 

I was once so depend on you now I will learn to be alone. Do everything alone. Everything there will be first time doing. I will learn from my mistake. I really don't know if i stay is really a good choice as you show me you don't care about us anymore. You even keep doing things i don't like. I guess we both had changed. 

Lesson learnt:

Not to depend on others too much. Spend more time with myself. No one will ever really care how you feel cause everyone is selfish. 

US

i know we are drifting apart. i know you are just running away from me. i know you don't want to see me or even contact me. understood. i wont find you again , even if there is urgent matters. i will learn to survive by my own. you are just pushing me away. maybe it's a sign that you really don't want me any more. i will learn. i know you had been contacting some girls. even if i ask you also wont admit it. should i continue to stay or leave? am i really can survive with out you? is there still love between us ? i really don't know. anyone can tell me what should i do to improve this situation? i really don't want to leave, i don't want to be alone again. can everything back to how we used to be? i wish there is nothing wrong with us.