he has been in camp for a week n we had quarreled 2x over small things. 1st time was about dun use ws den 2nd was about work. seriously work  is work i noe wad i hav to do n nt to do . i had work there for so long i noe them n they noe me so they wont bully me jus dat they hav to treat me a little diff cus nw im pregnant . although i dun feel anything change only me who had change as im pregnant n i cant do a lot of things like carry heavy things, walk fast. almost all d stations i had tried only d fries n batch cook nvr cus all heavy things. really wish dat after i giv birth n they will giv me a mgr post as i nid money. mgr pay is a lot for me as crew pay is very little to support 3 ppl. hope by den everything will does as i planned. i wish to hav our own hse by 2018 cus i really dun wan my baby to sleep wif us in a small room n we dun hav any privacy . i noe dat owning a hse will hav to spend a lot of money so i really nid dat pay . i haven discuss wif him yet but i hope he will agree wif me too hehe !!! when he book out den i will discuss wif him, after i start work baby seems to b less active n i dunno y . isit cus of i focus on work n didnt notice dat she had moved? im really scare anything might happened to her . heard from alvi n shirley dat by screening can check d weight of baby so nxt check up i will ask d doc about dat cus a lot ppl say my baby very small but d doc told me everything are fine so i assume she is growing healthy inside my womb  . hahahaha 

 

Surprised

He told me dat he will accompany me to collect my fone on 3rd as he changed his schedule wif fwen but he surprised me wif it on 1st instead.  Haha . I'm really surprised dat he will go dwn n help me collect. He ended early dat day n went dwn to amk to collect it.

Idah Urlilbabe
shaqidah !!!
who d fuck is she??
bibi still wanna sexting wif her!!!
OMG something is really wrong here !!
i cant confront him if nt he will noe dat i had been into his acc !! i shall nt ask him about tis 1st.
ask him when he off ba .

went over to his hse n stayed over . when he was goin to bath i had a though of checking his iphone n he went bak into d room n snatch away the fone n set password. after dat still can tell me is a surprise for me so jus wait n c lo. Previously keep text other gal n deleted all d conversation . guess he scare i will check his fone ba. if i were to noe who dat bitch is i cfm will make a big fuss out of it! got 1 time his fwen slip out n said something about 3rd party n his face changes n keeps very quite!! i might nt say but i noe wads goin on ard me . i will observe how u treat me ! btr dun let me dwn .

Didn't went to work as I'm having fever n ivyn went alone. There is a new guy joining us at tamp . So looking forward to c him as he is new n I can make new fwen too ! Haha!! Boss had increase ivyn's pay as he can help a lot n I'm nt helpless in other term. 😅😅 but who cares ? I'm happy wif wad I hav nw . Haha. 

lost....

maybe i should start nt to stick too close to Ivyn cus i think is no good for me n i noe it long ago jus dat i didnt want to care as i hav no one to talk to n hang out. im a loner but i guess i hav to start to look for a job as i am jobless for about 2months. i had been choosy for quite some time. when i choose job they oso are choosing me . i understand dat jus dat im keep running away as i tot i can always go bak to mcd as n when i like n nw i can nvr go bak to be like last time . the time i had in mcd is passed. nvr can go bak any more not an more. had ask rong bao to help to look f or job but i keep rejecting it. maybe i jus dun wan to be so close to him . had jus ask sy to help me ask if her side still nid ppl as i think the job over there isnt dat hard for me but is there really a job is nt hard in this world or im jus dun wan to do? i had been working more den  5 yrs n suddenly i had nth to do n im lost , i dunno wad to do or wad should i do！hope i can get a job n let everything bak to normal .

saw a blog post dat was on 2009 dat i wish someone could buy me a ticket to Joey Yung's concert n i was granted this wish on 2013 when he brought me to her concert . it was fun but for her concert she was speaking Cantonese all way which he wasnt so happy about. but i missed those time where we can go anywhr tgt n spend time tgt n nw all those time had past . it can only be memories , a good memories for me . dats all i can say. im really happy had he can be part of my memory. =)

2 dreams dat i had dreamed about him.

Actually tis morning nid to accompany him to his match but i was overslept n by d time i woke up d match was  over . d 1st dream dat  i dreamed was he went to bed wif a gal n i happened to went up his hse to find him n wad happened next im nt sure cus i was awakened by wad i had saw. D 2nd dream was we were quarreling wif something but wad was it i wasnt sure cus i cant hear a thing. within that few hours of sleep and i dreamed 2 things that had scared me to death !!! Is there anything going to happened to us or im jus missing him that's why i dreamed about him but is it have to be like these kind of dream? really wonder....

Hope everything will be fine n nothing will happened to us !!  

Jobless

Had been teminated frm Mcd cus I had NS for 1week. Went to fish & do but no response frm them. I guess I hav to find other job. Cass got a job at raffles but too far. Sy is bukit batok quite near but nid to keep on talking n hav to torerate customers' scolding. Dunno la. Sien.

FDP

1st time got stain on other ppl's bed. So ps sia. D only thing I did was to bath n run away frm d hse. N his mum had to wash 3 layers of bed sheet. Feel so guilty sia. Nxt time dun wan go his hse Liao la. 

Malaysia trip

Went Over to Malaysia wif aunty Doris n bibi on sat . Went over to eat n den Jiu come bak le. Sun went in to do my nails n we lost our way bak n we stay over at huiqi hse. Quite fun to had a day like dat. 

Transferring out of amk

I guess I will be transferring out on May 1 . Hope I will get btr over there . Cus all those fun ppl had left I oso shall leave tis store. Maybe dat store will be more fun? I will nvr noe until I was there. Chiu Ming told me dat he heard something frm somewhere n dat person had complaint about me . Nvm I guess I noe who cus when I was bak wif him u r like oops..... Haha. U will nvr get tis type of fwen in ur life . U will nvr experience wad I am experiencing or goin through. Only noe how to say about others y nt say about urself. B!tch u will nvr ever win me! If dat time I nvr help u will u get d highest score in d test? I doubt so. 2side face. C how long u can survive . Only noe how to say about others bad , r u doin a very good job? Nt really so pls jus do ur own things can le. 

31/3/14 we had once n it makes me hurt but on 13/4 he improved a lot n it doesn't hurt me any more. He was rite dat for d 1st it might get hurt n  after dat I will be enjoying. I really enjoy it. Haha, on 13/4 if I wasn't tired I think we can hav it for d whole nite w/o resting. I tot he could come over but he can't. Nvm I shall nt think so much on tis.

12/4/14 last time meeting

Maybe tis will be d last time we r meeting. I won't forget about u. U always in my heart.
Last time text like couple.

His last day at work

Had again on his last day of work. After he had been smashed at work n we went horny inside d ahu room dat we near start to kiss but after a while I finished my stuff n went home n I went to his hse. He told me dat he was horny bak den jus dat he control it.  

Was thinking about u n u texted me! Wow

maybe tis is wad i wan

maybe tis is wad i wan..... to let him hate me, to let him wont wan to look for me or stop thinking about me..... as i had make him n her broke up ....... nw they r fine n im here dripping bleed on d floor........ i noe there wont hav a machine to rewind everything to last time...... i noe is time to stop all tis stupid things n move on. i had make a fool out of myself in front of them n i guess they wont be my fwen/s wif me as they will think im a bitch...... who noes if im dare to love again as tis is d 1st time dat i had hurt myself thru love. tis is making me dying i really dunno wad can i do or wad to do . hope i can jus let everything go n dun c them forever if nt i really dunno wad can i do . he will be leaving us soon on d 27 march. tis will be d last time i c him n i hav no other reason to look for him anymore as i had messed everything up . there isnt any turning point at all for me . for him i dun think he will dare to look for me any more as i noe he loves her a lot n is more den me. i can feel dat his love towards me arent more den hers . i noe if i keep holding on im d only 1 dat is suffering n they will be happy enjoying their life...... so d only solution for me is to stop everything stupid n move on ! maybe i will find someone love me or maybe not i still hav to carry on my life no matter wad....... i noe i will be very upset nw..... it will feel btr some times ltr. hope tis will be d last time i post something so emo. i really dun like to cry..... but all memory jus keep flash bak n its making me upset n i noe i cant do anything to make him mine again as i had tried n i make him miserable . he dun even text me since den..... i noe that those happy times will always stay wif me jus dat i cant take it y he choose to stead wif me n nw i fall so deep n he jus left me like nth had happened to us! whenever i saw him it makes me think of d times we are tgt. hope after he left i wont hav tis feeling or maybe i will miss him more ..... i noe its time to let go ! i really hav to let go ! i really hav to..... hav to...... wish they can last long n be tgt till d end ! those he cant do wif me he can do wif her.! i always wanted to c sunrise n he nvr bring me to 1 n he brought her ! i wan soft toy frm him , he didnt giv me n he giv her. i noe i will nvr win her ! she has his whole heart ! really hav to stop all tis le ! ! I CAN LIVE WITHOUT HIM !!!!!

15/3/14 2am

Had tried it. I tot it would be salty but it is tasteless. He wondered y I am like tis n I told him previously oso like dat. N he got nth else to say. We had a sip before start. I dunno how to start it maybe his intention was to chat a bit den start n I was too 猴急to start everything. He said he had no energy to had d 2nd time but 1st time we had it we had 2nd time. N it hurt me too. I tot he dun like me dats y he do tis but den I realize dat he was drunk. After he got drunk he still will think for himself if it's me I will let it be. 

9/3/14

We had it again . He asked me out to buy his stuff at popular n went for a drink n k at civil centre . He chased me out again. 

6/3/14 unforgettable day

Had meeting in d morning before meeting went for hiring wif Vanessa n theviya. After d meeting we went to Vanessa hse to have steamboat after dat went to civil centre for k . Maxing Samantha lipping n boss oso go. It's really fun ! After dat went to his hse n he said he haven hav sex since he left me n we had 2 times in dat nite. Jus dat he wasn't dat gentle any more as he said we won't be tgt only sex . I won't mind but I think he won't look for me in a while guess by nxt week or month he will look for me.