Ytd was the 1st day of new module at ITE East, travelled about 45mins down and almost 2hrs back home. 

I came out of the wrong exit and wasted some time there, if not I won't be so late for the lesson. Bought dinner to campus but lecturer advised to eat something light and not something that will dirty the room. Only the attended class for 1 day and I feel like I am a zombie for now, plus 2day is my 2nd day period, really feel like dying. Lucky manager is not around,  hopefully later I can go to the printing room n read comic . 🤭

Normally I would take company transport in the morning to office but this morning the bus was earlier than expected and when I was waiting for the traffic  light and I saw my company bus turning into the bus lane n I called the HR to wait for me awhile n they waited for me. I'm really grateful for that. I was wearing my bluetooth before on-board, when we were on the elevator the HR was gossiping with another HR about me. I can hardly hear them, I think their conversation were like if I'm late I would rather take public transport. I wasn't late, plus I was waiting for the traffic light, how long could that be ? 2-3mins? If that very late ? 

Asked you if you are free to have dinner together and you said OK but when the time is nearer you didn't tell me you cannot make it and i have to ask you then you tell me. Why do you have to wait for me to text you then you tell me this and that ? 

Shouldn't have asked you in the first place.

Early morning brought my eldest daughter for her dental appointment. After the dental appontment, she told me that she wants to eat cabonara so we went to Sheng Siong to buy the ingredients needed and went home. Brought some ingredients to make some mini pizzas so i am lazy to cook, i can just bake the pizza for me n children to eat. 🤭🤭

Easy lunch. Love it when children are not disturbing me while I am cooking. 🤭🤭

 seriously!! why cant you be more auto abit !! if u are not feeling well and you know that we are going to share food, why didnt you tell me or use the sharing chopstick? now i am fallen sick then when i pass the virus to my children and who gonna take care of my children when they are sick ? are you going to take care of them for me ? 

Bought children for a swim and found out that there was an event going on, the admission was free and there are quite a few games that we can play. One of the volunteer told me that this event only held once every year 1 week before national day and only 5 swimming complex will be selected once year.

Hope next year our side will be chosen again, it was a fun afternoon spending time there. 🥰

finally getting better

Eldest daughter has been sick for the pass 1 week and today finally can take in some food. Cooked Japanese curry rice and miso soup for the family.

 also need to change job, very sien. always because of no one taking care of the children when they fallen sick. really hope someone can help to take care or they wont fall sick easily.

Moving into our new flat

 It has been a long time since i last posting blog. We just moved into our new bto in end May and we really love it here although there are a lot of the owner still renovating their flat during the weekend which we are unable to rest well but it's ok. Everyone are anxious to have their own spcae.

Ah beng asked me to ask customer for the address.  He ask me 2 times but I didn't know that once he update the address he will dispatch. Then later at night when driver went to the customer location and customer asked to deliver after office hour n ah how ask who agree on that n I owned up. This is not what I have to do. I only do for LM n now I have to do for FM n yet I still get scolding. Who the hell will know how their things works. Still keep give me 🤦‍♀️this face. As if I know everything. Knn. Stupid bastard.

rebounding

Finally get to rebound my hair. 

its been a long time since u last accompany me and kids.

u didnt even wan to help me with house chords or taking care of kids even if u know im heavily pregnant.

when will all of these end?

when can i really sleep with peace?

Keep goin in to malaysia during night time plus nvr inform me dat y u hav to go in. It's ok la. I'm jus a person to tc ur shit n u can jus simply go out n enjoy. U piece of shit only know how to enjoy n let me suffer. No wonder u hav no money to giv me whenever I ask for it. Since u like to go in so much jus go in n ask dat person to hav sex wif u lo. I'm not gonna entertain u any more

Whatever I do it will be forever my fault. Buy food to your work place for u n ur fwens but in the end wad I get? A slap n ask me to disappear . Jus because I didn't separate out the chopstick into diff bag. Now dat crazy person ask me not to come bak . Ya lo everything is forever my fault. Ya la all against me la. Y not all kill me btr? Once I die no one will goes against ur will any more.. or maybe once I die u guys will be more happier. 

I'm always a nobody. Wan to spend some time with you oso hard. Simple msg u oso won't send. I'm always the one who wait. Do u noe dat I'm sad? Hell no cus u dun care. Jus a call or text from ur fwen to ask u go out u will always say yes n I ask u go out wif me n u still have to consider. My time is always not time n yours is precious.
So wad if I dun hav much fwen? Does dat mean dat u can go out as n when u like n throw our children to me to take care them alone? So wad if they sleeping ? He free time always nt wif me.

its ok. i wont care about what you do outside anymore so u better don't come and ask me what am i doing. since this is what you want then let it be. i dont need your love also. there is no such thing as love forever. love will fade and it will turn to responsiblility. thats when everything change include love and trust.

its been a lot long since i last sleep over at parents house. love the feeling of no responsibilities. feel so carefree.

if only i can stay here forever.

You never will understand what I want. Even if I tell u u also will forget. 

Everything is always my fault

Whatever I said is always wrong whatever I said is always bring up the past if u didn't even do will I have something to say ? How many hours u need to be outside? Whenever ur fwen ask u out u will go even if u work 7am in the morning but when I ask u to go out wif me n u tell me u work 7am u cannot go out. So who is more important. Even if ask u being daughter for check up oso can say I nid to work when d day before u went out late n wake up late for the appointment so isit my fault ? Ya I'm bringing up the past again. Whatever I say is past cus when u did something did I say a thing but when I do u will say me n when I use u to compare u will always have excuses to say. So I'm always in the wrong.

Say I nvr trust u but wad did u do to let me trust u ? When ever u said tings dat u will do in the end nvr do. So wad got debt ? Can u pay everything 1 short ? Oso nid time to do so so y nid to rush ? Since u have been poor for the past 22years y change nw ? Still say by tis year wan clear everything. Who do u think u r ? U think u earn a lot uh? Knn den throw baby n house chores to me . Every day come bak from work jiu play game/use fone den sleep. Didn't even wan to talk to me or interact wif kids. Ya lo we all are air can't see ma dats y no nid interact.