25 anniversary amk

Late for work n I took cab dwn waste money again. I was in d kitchen before goin to d DK . Didn't go for break when working n after work went dinner wif LP, Mery, huiqi n Doris. D event was okie but a lot of attachment staffs. Looks crowded frm outside. Took some pics but nt using my fone. Saw his family n they seems nt to look at me or talk to me even d baby. Hmm okie... Fine.... Haha..

Lonely ba

feeling lost

i feel so lost. i really dunno wad to do or wad can i do ! i noe dat keep on running away is nt a solution. i hav to go bak to sch n hav a normal life again ! i noe dat jus dat i really dun wish to do those things again n again . i felt like i dun wan to do all these things again .. i dun wan to study,work or stay home . i wish i hav lots of money so  i can run away from home run away from this play to other place whereby no ppl noe me or a place i dunno to live. i wanna start a new life ! if only i can . really dun wish to stay here n remember all those sad things dat had happened to me tis few months . i really cant take it. no one can help me even myself . all those r important but i jus dun wan to do it . i dunno la . lost in my own world le. hope i can get out of it soon , it had to be fast as it goin to d end of d year soon, exams coming real soon and i didnt even started on d revising. yeah nid to start revising ......

Guys r d same??

All guys are d same. Tot dat he would like me but I was wrong. I'm d one maybe or I just Dun wan to be left alone? I dunno. Maybe I'm too lonely Dats y. I should get used to tis feeling as No one will stay by ur side forever or even awhile. Understand.

When they noe u they will keep on talking to u but when they noe new gals they will change their attitude towards u. Or maybe I'm Nt even worth. Maybe.... maybe..

Do I really like him? He is d 1st guy that I'm comfortable wif. I can be myself when I'm wif him but I dun think I like him. I only noe dat I can find him n talk if I hav any problem. Hope he will keep his mouth shut of wad I had told him. 

Managing service area. Handling customer

Tis is my 1st time managing service area after being a manager. I'm panic n scare I will do things wrong or did something dat is nt suppose to do. But lucky I'm still okie with it. Things went okie but I feel stress when they keep on calling for manager n I can't help to do anything. I did try to help to solve some of the problems. Don't have enough ppl to do tis n dat making me a hard time n others oso. 1st time managing a angry customer as wanted to order a large coke but he had queued at the food collection area n he keeps can't get his order ordered. He was very angry. I didn't did a good job in tis part as I study service n yet I'm nt doin a good job in tis. Really d 1st time contacting wif real ppl n real situation. Hope the next time I will do a better job!!!! I find it interesting to work as a manager le as it is more challenging. Haha . Had learnt how to change CO2 tank as I wanted to learn it long time ago. I will ask. More questions now. Alvin oso said I'm playful. Haha. 

Went out for movie

Went out for a movie wif Ivyn for d 1st time. He went to buy iPhone 5c den went to buy fone cover n screen protector. After dat we went for d movie insidious chapter 2.

Thinking too much

U think too much liao la. Who do u think u r?  He is his a fwen to u. Dun even think about it. Dun wish to let it happen again. I really can't take it

Lost interest?

Maybe I had lost interest in study. Keep on dun Feel like Goin school but Just few more months n I will be Goin to higher nitec. Maybe I'm Just too Lazy. Tmr I will wake up n go school de

After so long nw I'm starting to watch my shows again. Long time nvr watch my dramas le. Feel so good . Even though I noe there is something missing but I will find something to do or think of something to make it okie. =) 

Weird dream

Dream about him n we had sex n I ask him about her age. O.o siao sia

My dream

I dreamed about him again. Tis time I was laying beside him n I ask him is he wif serene den I dunno wad he said weekdays n weekends. After dat I awake. -.- maybe I still can't forget about him. Still nid some time to forget about him .

8/9/13

Went for a drinking session wif Amy,ks,Ivyn,nh me. Ks was d 1st to dwn. He keep vomiting ard d place n Ivyn had to clean d place. He was very pekcey . Keep asking ks to sit up all dat. He even hit him on d face. Very scary but we had fun after all. Maybe next time we can hav tis session again after some time. I oso vomited quite a lot. True dat after vomiting I feel btr. Even injured my leg. Ks lost his cigg n Ivyn injured his face. Nh a bit gone case but still can manage to bring me n Amy home. After reaching hm I went inside room n sleep. 

Will be getting promote on d 16 sept to FM haha. Dunno how much will d pay be, help I can manage it well . Jus nw he shake hands wif me to congrats me suddenly feel like hugging him. I noe he isn't mine any more. 2person getting promote . 

My dream

Y would I dream of u ? Y would I remember my dream? Last time I won't dream about u or remember anything about my dream. Weird sia. I dreamed about I was watching tv n u sit in front of me n accompanied me watch tv when u alr very tired n fallen asleep den I said we go sleep ba when about to go into d room his mum was in d kitchen we didn't noe she was bak n she bought fwens along . Looks like aunty soo eng n aunty Susan . We were go into d room hugging each other . Very sweet n seems so real to me. Isit I miss him too much dat I dream of tis or its a random dream? I dunno. Suddenly feel so warm to c tis familiar face in front of me n being sweet to me. Hope it will really happen in life. Will it? Doubting ...

They went out for a date! Still say will ask me to go for a movie instead of me u find her! Ya . I reminded u ma. Good lo. Last long !! U happy can liao

Everything end on 16/8/13

It would be easy for u cus u alr gav up. I would nid some time to get bak up. I nid  u to support If can. Pls Dun treat me differently. We can be fwen!  Best fwen Maybe?  Haha. I will change to a better me. Will u support me? 

He said he will support me as a fwen. I noe dat he has a her jus dat dun wanna tell me. I long noe jus didn't make a sound. Until u said break up for d second time as u wanna be wif her. U said u won't be in a relationship for awhile but when I receive ur msg it giv me a feel dat u had her better den me n when I ask whr had I done wrong or nt doin well u said nth. Because u jus wanna break so u say everything is ur fault. Well as u promise to giv me a hug at Taiwan so we will c how things work ba. Hope we can be tgt again... Hoping.. 

15/8/13

Y tis thing again? Y u keep wanna break up? Y can't wait until after we come bak frm Taiwan den say? I tot we agreed on dat?? Y ? I jus dunno y! 

6/8/13

Finally can go his hse, slept well beside him. Jus like to sleep tgt . Make me feel very safe when I'm wif him, 

2/8/13

He came dwn to amk n waited me to end work . After dat we went for dinner n movie n he sent me home. After sending me home he walked home. We watched gain n pain . We ate teppayaki . It's more like a date den normal things we do. I love it . =) hope to get more of this, haha. 

Rejected twice for nt letting me goin his hse plus when I ask him things n can say nth. Ya la . Wif other gal can talk a lot ma wif me very boring Liao. I noe u dun like me is I'm d 1 keep pestering u ma. If u dun wan me just tell me again! I won't ask for it again! Makes me so angry !!!,!