Baby baby fair at expo

Went to expo on 14 June 2015 to buy jamie's stuff. We bought baby pram n avent single pump set. Almost half of d money were spent on these 2 items !!

I'm really happy dat hubby really buy me d pump as d pump is quite ex.

I hope d pram is good cus is I choose . I hope they will like it oso cus I oso nvr ask for their opinion . So far d pram is still ok.

Jamie is about 1 month old. I'm really happy !!

1st baby born .

On 19 may 2015 , Jamie Toh was born. She was 2.865kg. Wad a big sized baby. She was very guai. I went in d deliver suit ard 1pm+ n delivered her at 3.20pm.
Morning ard 9+ d pain already started n it jus gets more n more pain n getting closer each time!! About to labour d pain was unbearable, it feels like u r goin to poop but it's a very big poop dat nid a lot of strength to push it out !! If there were camera in d suit I really wanna look at d playback as how I managed to gave birth. It must b very terrifying to c it .
After delivered I was able to c Jamie n she didn't cry when I carry her !!

1st day home n she is still adapting d new environment . But she still can eat a lot !! D day b4 we discharged she can eat up to 1 1/2 bottles of formula !! Wow big eater !! Same as her dad! Like father like daughter !! Wahahaha

On 21 may finally I hav milk to feed but it's jus too little to feed. I will try my best to giv her more !! I found out when I was about to bath at nite n I was very happy n I told hubby about it ! Tmr I shall breastfeed Jamie !! Feels so anxious about it !!

心灰意冷

Seriously I really dun understand or know how it happened. How can u add someone on fb n u won't noe. Seriously . Plus both r gals ?! Is dat even possible ?!! Yes I dun believe it cus I can't do it so I dun believe it am I wrong wif dat ? Ask u to show me n u said ' if u dun trust me den dun talk to me' ! Am I in d wrong ? Dun talk jiu dun talk. Seriously when I nid someone who is there for me ? No one. So ?! How u wan me to trust u ? U oso nvr care for wad I nid when I'm pregnant. U jus wan d baby. Maybe jus maybe after giv birth I will leave . Since tis is d only thing u wan  den I will leave it to u. I can b alone .

Nvm clothes dun wan wash I can wash myself . Dun like me ? Dats ur problem !!

he has been in camp for a week n we had quarreled 2x over small things. 1st time was about dun use ws den 2nd was about work. seriously work  is work i noe wad i hav to do n nt to do . i had work there for so long i noe them n they noe me so they wont bully me jus dat they hav to treat me a little diff cus nw im pregnant . although i dun feel anything change only me who had change as im pregnant n i cant do a lot of things like carry heavy things, walk fast. almost all d stations i had tried only d fries n batch cook nvr cus all heavy things. really wish dat after i giv birth n they will giv me a mgr post as i nid money. mgr pay is a lot for me as crew pay is very little to support 3 ppl. hope by den everything will does as i planned. i wish to hav our own hse by 2018 cus i really dun wan my baby to sleep wif us in a small room n we dun hav any privacy . i noe dat owning a hse will hav to spend a lot of money so i really nid dat pay . i haven discuss wif him yet but i hope he will agree wif me too hehe !!! when he book out den i will discuss wif him, after i start work baby seems to b less active n i dunno y . isit cus of i focus on work n didnt notice dat she had moved? im really scare anything might happened to her . heard from alvi n shirley dat by screening can check d weight of baby so nxt check up i will ask d doc about dat cus a lot ppl say my baby very small but d doc told me everything are fine so i assume she is growing healthy inside my womb  . hahahaha 

 

Surprised

He told me dat he will accompany me to collect my fone on 3rd as he changed his schedule wif fwen but he surprised me wif it on 1st instead.  Haha . I'm really surprised dat he will go dwn n help me collect. He ended early dat day n went dwn to amk to collect it.

Idah Urlilbabe
shaqidah !!!
who d fuck is she??
bibi still wanna sexting wif her!!!
OMG something is really wrong here !!
i cant confront him if nt he will noe dat i had been into his acc !! i shall nt ask him about tis 1st.
ask him when he off ba .

went over to his hse n stayed over . when he was goin to bath i had a though of checking his iphone n he went bak into d room n snatch away the fone n set password. after dat still can tell me is a surprise for me so jus wait n c lo. Previously keep text other gal n deleted all d conversation . guess he scare i will check his fone ba. if i were to noe who dat bitch is i cfm will make a big fuss out of it! got 1 time his fwen slip out n said something about 3rd party n his face changes n keeps very quite!! i might nt say but i noe wads goin on ard me . i will observe how u treat me ! btr dun let me dwn .

Didn't went to work as I'm having fever n ivyn went alone. There is a new guy joining us at tamp . So looking forward to c him as he is new n I can make new fwen too ! Haha!! Boss had increase ivyn's pay as he can help a lot n I'm nt helpless in other term. 😅😅 but who cares ? I'm happy wif wad I hav nw . Haha. 

lost....

maybe i should start nt to stick too close to Ivyn cus i think is no good for me n i noe it long ago jus dat i didnt want to care as i hav no one to talk to n hang out. im a loner but i guess i hav to start to look for a job as i am jobless for about 2months. i had been choosy for quite some time. when i choose job they oso are choosing me . i understand dat jus dat im keep running away as i tot i can always go bak to mcd as n when i like n nw i can nvr go bak to be like last time . the time i had in mcd is passed. nvr can go bak any more not an more. had ask rong bao to help to look f or job but i keep rejecting it. maybe i jus dun wan to be so close to him . had jus ask sy to help me ask if her side still nid ppl as i think the job over there isnt dat hard for me but is there really a job is nt hard in this world or im jus dun wan to do? i had been working more den  5 yrs n suddenly i had nth to do n im lost , i dunno wad to do or wad should i do！hope i can get a job n let everything bak to normal .

saw a blog post dat was on 2009 dat i wish someone could buy me a ticket to Joey Yung's concert n i was granted this wish on 2013 when he brought me to her concert . it was fun but for her concert she was speaking Cantonese all way which he wasnt so happy about. but i missed those time where we can go anywhr tgt n spend time tgt n nw all those time had past . it can only be memories , a good memories for me . dats all i can say. im really happy had he can be part of my memory. =)

2 dreams dat i had dreamed about him.

Actually tis morning nid to accompany him to his match but i was overslept n by d time i woke up d match was  over . d 1st dream dat  i dreamed was he went to bed wif a gal n i happened to went up his hse to find him n wad happened next im nt sure cus i was awakened by wad i had saw. D 2nd dream was we were quarreling wif something but wad was it i wasnt sure cus i cant hear a thing. within that few hours of sleep and i dreamed 2 things that had scared me to death !!! Is there anything going to happened to us or im jus missing him that's why i dreamed about him but is it have to be like these kind of dream? really wonder....

Hope everything will be fine n nothing will happened to us !!  

Jobless

Had been teminated frm Mcd cus I had NS for 1week. Went to fish & do but no response frm them. I guess I hav to find other job. Cass got a job at raffles but too far. Sy is bukit batok quite near but nid to keep on talking n hav to torerate customers' scolding. Dunno la. Sien.

FDP

1st time got stain on other ppl's bed. So ps sia. D only thing I did was to bath n run away frm d hse. N his mum had to wash 3 layers of bed sheet. Feel so guilty sia. Nxt time dun wan go his hse Liao la. 

Malaysia trip

Went Over to Malaysia wif aunty Doris n bibi on sat . Went over to eat n den Jiu come bak le. Sun went in to do my nails n we lost our way bak n we stay over at huiqi hse. Quite fun to had a day like dat. 

Transferring out of amk

I guess I will be transferring out on May 1 . Hope I will get btr over there . Cus all those fun ppl had left I oso shall leave tis store. Maybe dat store will be more fun? I will nvr noe until I was there. Chiu Ming told me dat he heard something frm somewhere n dat person had complaint about me . Nvm I guess I noe who cus when I was bak wif him u r like oops..... Haha. U will nvr get tis type of fwen in ur life . U will nvr experience wad I am experiencing or goin through. Only noe how to say about others y nt say about urself. B!tch u will nvr ever win me! If dat time I nvr help u will u get d highest score in d test? I doubt so. 2side face. C how long u can survive . Only noe how to say about others bad , r u doin a very good job? Nt really so pls jus do ur own things can le. 

31/3/14 we had once n it makes me hurt but on 13/4 he improved a lot n it doesn't hurt me any more. He was rite dat for d 1st it might get hurt n  after dat I will be enjoying. I really enjoy it. Haha, on 13/4 if I wasn't tired I think we can hav it for d whole nite w/o resting. I tot he could come over but he can't. Nvm I shall nt think so much on tis.

12/4/14 last time meeting

Maybe tis will be d last time we r meeting. I won't forget about u. U always in my heart.
Last time text like couple.

His last day at work

Had again on his last day of work. After he had been smashed at work n we went horny inside d ahu room dat we near start to kiss but after a while I finished my stuff n went home n I went to his hse. He told me dat he was horny bak den jus dat he control it.  

Was thinking about u n u texted me! Wow