I hav so much to say but whenever I'm wif u i became speechless. I hav feelings too . Y always ignore me ? Y always fierce me ? I jus Wan to talk to u. I jus Wan to noe wad is happening ard u. But u always nvr Wan to tell me. Nvr Wan to share ur things wif me . I missed those time whr u will tell me everything n we can talk for hrs but nw we hardly talk plus u always dun Wan tell me . Even if I'm beside u I dun even noe wad r u thinking about. Always ask me to fuck off dun irritated u dun touch u. U r d only person I Wan to talk to I Wan to noe more about u . I noe u r stress but idk wad stress is it. Told u I dun like u to do something yet u always do . Baby is ours y u nvr help to tc ? I Nid rest oso. I Wan to go out oso. Y u cannot help? We Long time nvr talk le Sia. When can we have small talk again ? Waiting for it to happen....... Dun think it will happen

Alr told u I dun alike u to go but u still go. Yeah of cus la there got gals to c n touch ma. U like wad. Can even hav sex wif u . I'm jus nobody. Keep goin lo.  Will leave soon

Lovebite

On 11 Jan nite I came home n he wasn't at home n after he came home sleep awhile n went out again. He got d lovebite on dat day n tell me it's other day cus he went drinking wif fwen 3x Tis week when I'm nt ard. After when he went out I checked his clothes n I smelt ladies perfume n dat nite we had sex n I saw dat n he told me its I make but I didn't den he said dat day went drinking wif fwen n he fallen asleep n he didn't noe it. Sry I dun buy dat story I'm jus dun wan to quarrel again . Cus dat nite u came bak woodlands quite early but nvr come home I guess u went her Hse ba . If nt ur bed skills won't improve oso. Still dare to say is u watch porn n u alr noe how to last longer in sex but y previously u didn't do it ? All r bullshits. U even went out wif other gal when I'm taking care of baby . Asked u whr u went n u didn't say meaning nt even went shopping n eating Liao lo it must b something else n u didn't wan me to noe. Asked u so many questions n u say dunno but when I ask when hav lovebite n u remember wow.

After I came bak although everything looks normal but I still can't believe u. So many things to suspect . Ur fone nvr leave ur sight. 

Angry

It's hard for me to believe dat u had noe 2 new things about sex . U nvr used to noe how to last long during sex and how to ride u. After quarrel for about 2 months n Tis is wad u show me . Cool n u said u noe all these things long ago but we had been tgt for how long ? 1yr plus n u nvr show all these . N one more thing is u went to pub n came home wif a lovebite on ur neck n d only thing u tell me is u fallen asleep b u dunno someone gave u lovebite. Yeah all these things sound so normal uh . 

So desperate for gals n keep texting other gal plus say u r single when u r nt. Seriously am I stupid or maybe I jus dun wan to wake up . 

I always believe in u but r u saying d truth idk. U say u n mx went movie n he has free tickets for ip man but he still used his MasterCard for discount. Yea went out wif other gals n jus anyhow bomb ur fwen . D moment u said ya mx I alr noe it's nt him . It's ok la u like her den go ba I can't do anything . No wonder u keeps wanting me to leave 

I really dunno wad should I do ? Wad I do to deserve Tis?! Seriously who am I to do? Am I jus ur punching bag ? I'm human being nt punching bag !! Within 6 days n it happened again . Ya la everything my fault lo wad ever I do u oso will say wrong . 

Nobody

I'm jus a nobody to u who can hit me , ignore me. Am I really ur wife? Seriously I dun no. Who can tell me wad can I do? Y do I have to go through tis? Who can save me ? 

Nvm la . Since u like to tell others ur things n my things den go tell ba I won't tell u my things any more . Say go find fwen slack den their gf come nid entertain uh . Since u like to talk to gals den go lo. Say a bit jiu nt happy nvm I won't tell U my things . Nt worth d quarrel . U oso dun love me anymore . Tell u nt to do yet still do . Nvm la . Everything my fault lo

I'm jus a nobody whr u can say go away n dun follow me . Seriously , was an I to u ?! Y should I listen to u ?! Y am I still staying here ?! Y am I crying ?! I really dun understand !! Anyone can explain to me ?? Or am I jus overthinking?

Lesson learnt

In Tis world no one will help u except urself . No point asking someone to help cus everyone is selfish . No point hurting urself cus no one will care . No point depend on someone cus dat someone may betray u hurt u n destroy u . I've learnt my lesson . Only myself won't betray myself . I hav my own life to live . Y should I care wad other ppl say or how they act . 

Nt ur family member forever won't be de . I will work hard to earn my own flat . 

We had been tgt how long n u still dunno wad I will eat meh ?! When I eat white de.  Knn still can say I say . Dun eat btr

Baby baby fair at expo

Went to expo on 14 June 2015 to buy jamie's stuff. We bought baby pram n avent single pump set. Almost half of d money were spent on these 2 items !!

I'm really happy dat hubby really buy me d pump as d pump is quite ex.

I hope d pram is good cus is I choose . I hope they will like it oso cus I oso nvr ask for their opinion . So far d pram is still ok.

Jamie is about 1 month old. I'm really happy !!

1st baby born .

On 19 may 2015 , Jamie Toh was born. She was 2.865kg. Wad a big sized baby. She was very guai. I went in d deliver suit ard 1pm+ n delivered her at 3.20pm.
Morning ard 9+ d pain already started n it jus gets more n more pain n getting closer each time!! About to labour d pain was unbearable, it feels like u r goin to poop but it's a very big poop dat nid a lot of strength to push it out !! If there were camera in d suit I really wanna look at d playback as how I managed to gave birth. It must b very terrifying to c it .
After delivered I was able to c Jamie n she didn't cry when I carry her !!

1st day home n she is still adapting d new environment . But she still can eat a lot !! D day b4 we discharged she can eat up to 1 1/2 bottles of formula !! Wow big eater !! Same as her dad! Like father like daughter !! Wahahaha

On 21 may finally I hav milk to feed but it's jus too little to feed. I will try my best to giv her more !! I found out when I was about to bath at nite n I was very happy n I told hubby about it ! Tmr I shall breastfeed Jamie !! Feels so anxious about it !!

心灰意冷

Seriously I really dun understand or know how it happened. How can u add someone on fb n u won't noe. Seriously . Plus both r gals ?! Is dat even possible ?!! Yes I dun believe it cus I can't do it so I dun believe it am I wrong wif dat ? Ask u to show me n u said ' if u dun trust me den dun talk to me' ! Am I in d wrong ? Dun talk jiu dun talk. Seriously when I nid someone who is there for me ? No one. So ?! How u wan me to trust u ? U oso nvr care for wad I nid when I'm pregnant. U jus wan d baby. Maybe jus maybe after giv birth I will leave . Since tis is d only thing u wan  den I will leave it to u. I can b alone .

Nvm clothes dun wan wash I can wash myself . Dun like me ? Dats ur problem !!

he has been in camp for a week n we had quarreled 2x over small things. 1st time was about dun use ws den 2nd was about work. seriously work  is work i noe wad i hav to do n nt to do . i had work there for so long i noe them n they noe me so they wont bully me jus dat they hav to treat me a little diff cus nw im pregnant . although i dun feel anything change only me who had change as im pregnant n i cant do a lot of things like carry heavy things, walk fast. almost all d stations i had tried only d fries n batch cook nvr cus all heavy things. really wish dat after i giv birth n they will giv me a mgr post as i nid money. mgr pay is a lot for me as crew pay is very little to support 3 ppl. hope by den everything will does as i planned. i wish to hav our own hse by 2018 cus i really dun wan my baby to sleep wif us in a small room n we dun hav any privacy . i noe dat owning a hse will hav to spend a lot of money so i really nid dat pay . i haven discuss wif him yet but i hope he will agree wif me too hehe !!! when he book out den i will discuss wif him, after i start work baby seems to b less active n i dunno y . isit cus of i focus on work n didnt notice dat she had moved? im really scare anything might happened to her . heard from alvi n shirley dat by screening can check d weight of baby so nxt check up i will ask d doc about dat cus a lot ppl say my baby very small but d doc told me everything are fine so i assume she is growing healthy inside my womb  . hahahaha 

 

Surprised

He told me dat he will accompany me to collect my fone on 3rd as he changed his schedule wif fwen but he surprised me wif it on 1st instead.  Haha . I'm really surprised dat he will go dwn n help me collect. He ended early dat day n went dwn to amk to collect it.

Idah Urlilbabe
shaqidah !!!
who d fuck is she??
bibi still wanna sexting wif her!!!
OMG something is really wrong here !!
i cant confront him if nt he will noe dat i had been into his acc !! i shall nt ask him about tis 1st.
ask him when he off ba .

went over to his hse n stayed over . when he was goin to bath i had a though of checking his iphone n he went bak into d room n snatch away the fone n set password. after dat still can tell me is a surprise for me so jus wait n c lo. Previously keep text other gal n deleted all d conversation . guess he scare i will check his fone ba. if i were to noe who dat bitch is i cfm will make a big fuss out of it! got 1 time his fwen slip out n said something about 3rd party n his face changes n keeps very quite!! i might nt say but i noe wads goin on ard me . i will observe how u treat me ! btr dun let me dwn .