心灰意冷

Seriously I really dun understand or know how it happened. How can u add someone on fb n u won't noe. Seriously . Plus both r gals ?! Is dat even possible ?!! Yes I dun believe it cus I can't do it so I dun believe it am I wrong wif dat ? Ask u to show me n u said ' if u dun trust me den dun talk to me' ! Am I in d wrong ? Dun talk jiu dun talk. Seriously when I nid someone who is there for me ? No one. So ?! How u wan me to trust u ? U oso nvr care for wad I nid when I'm pregnant. U jus wan d baby. Maybe jus maybe after giv birth I will leave . Since tis is d only thing u wan  den I will leave it to u. I can b alone .

Nvm clothes dun wan wash I can wash myself . Dun like me ? Dats ur problem !!

he has been in camp for a week n we had quarreled 2x over small things. 1st time was about dun use ws den 2nd was about work. seriously work  is work i noe wad i hav to do n nt to do . i had work there for so long i noe them n they noe me so they wont bully me jus dat they hav to treat me a little diff cus nw im pregnant . although i dun feel anything change only me who had change as im pregnant n i cant do a lot of things like carry heavy things, walk fast. almost all d stations i had tried only d fries n batch cook nvr cus all heavy things. really wish dat after i giv birth n they will giv me a mgr post as i nid money. mgr pay is a lot for me as crew pay is very little to support 3 ppl. hope by den everything will does as i planned. i wish to hav our own hse by 2018 cus i really dun wan my baby to sleep wif us in a small room n we dun hav any privacy . i noe dat owning a hse will hav to spend a lot of money so i really nid dat pay . i haven discuss wif him yet but i hope he will agree wif me too hehe !!! when he book out den i will discuss wif him, after i start work baby seems to b less active n i dunno y . isit cus of i focus on work n didnt notice dat she had moved? im really scare anything might happened to her . heard from alvi n shirley dat by screening can check d weight of baby so nxt check up i will ask d doc about dat cus a lot ppl say my baby very small but d doc told me everything are fine so i assume she is growing healthy inside my womb  . hahahaha 

 

Surprised

He told me dat he will accompany me to collect my fone on 3rd as he changed his schedule wif fwen but he surprised me wif it on 1st instead.  Haha . I'm really surprised dat he will go dwn n help me collect. He ended early dat day n went dwn to amk to collect it.

Idah Urlilbabe
shaqidah !!!
who d fuck is she??
bibi still wanna sexting wif her!!!
OMG something is really wrong here !!
i cant confront him if nt he will noe dat i had been into his acc !! i shall nt ask him about tis 1st.
ask him when he off ba .

went over to his hse n stayed over . when he was goin to bath i had a though of checking his iphone n he went bak into d room n snatch away the fone n set password. after dat still can tell me is a surprise for me so jus wait n c lo. Previously keep text other gal n deleted all d conversation . guess he scare i will check his fone ba. if i were to noe who dat bitch is i cfm will make a big fuss out of it! got 1 time his fwen slip out n said something about 3rd party n his face changes n keeps very quite!! i might nt say but i noe wads goin on ard me . i will observe how u treat me ! btr dun let me dwn .

Didn't went to work as I'm having fever n ivyn went alone. There is a new guy joining us at tamp . So looking forward to c him as he is new n I can make new fwen too ! Haha!! Boss had increase ivyn's pay as he can help a lot n I'm nt helpless in other term. 😅😅 but who cares ? I'm happy wif wad I hav nw . Haha. 

lost....

maybe i should start nt to stick too close to Ivyn cus i think is no good for me n i noe it long ago jus dat i didnt want to care as i hav no one to talk to n hang out. im a loner but i guess i hav to start to look for a job as i am jobless for about 2months. i had been choosy for quite some time. when i choose job they oso are choosing me . i understand dat jus dat im keep running away as i tot i can always go bak to mcd as n when i like n nw i can nvr go bak to be like last time . the time i had in mcd is passed. nvr can go bak any more not an more. had ask rong bao to help to look f or job but i keep rejecting it. maybe i jus dun wan to be so close to him . had jus ask sy to help me ask if her side still nid ppl as i think the job over there isnt dat hard for me but is there really a job is nt hard in this world or im jus dun wan to do? i had been working more den  5 yrs n suddenly i had nth to do n im lost , i dunno wad to do or wad should i do！hope i can get a job n let everything bak to normal .

saw a blog post dat was on 2009 dat i wish someone could buy me a ticket to Joey Yung's concert n i was granted this wish on 2013 when he brought me to her concert . it was fun but for her concert she was speaking Cantonese all way which he wasnt so happy about. but i missed those time where we can go anywhr tgt n spend time tgt n nw all those time had past . it can only be memories , a good memories for me . dats all i can say. im really happy had he can be part of my memory. =)

2 dreams dat i had dreamed about him.

Actually tis morning nid to accompany him to his match but i was overslept n by d time i woke up d match was  over . d 1st dream dat  i dreamed was he went to bed wif a gal n i happened to went up his hse to find him n wad happened next im nt sure cus i was awakened by wad i had saw. D 2nd dream was we were quarreling wif something but wad was it i wasnt sure cus i cant hear a thing. within that few hours of sleep and i dreamed 2 things that had scared me to death !!! Is there anything going to happened to us or im jus missing him that's why i dreamed about him but is it have to be like these kind of dream? really wonder....

Hope everything will be fine n nothing will happened to us !!  

Jobless

Had been teminated frm Mcd cus I had NS for 1week. Went to fish & do but no response frm them. I guess I hav to find other job. Cass got a job at raffles but too far. Sy is bukit batok quite near but nid to keep on talking n hav to torerate customers' scolding. Dunno la. Sien.

FDP

1st time got stain on other ppl's bed. So ps sia. D only thing I did was to bath n run away frm d hse. N his mum had to wash 3 layers of bed sheet. Feel so guilty sia. Nxt time dun wan go his hse Liao la. 

Malaysia trip

Went Over to Malaysia wif aunty Doris n bibi on sat . Went over to eat n den Jiu come bak le. Sun went in to do my nails n we lost our way bak n we stay over at huiqi hse. Quite fun to had a day like dat. 

Transferring out of amk

I guess I will be transferring out on May 1 . Hope I will get btr over there . Cus all those fun ppl had left I oso shall leave tis store. Maybe dat store will be more fun? I will nvr noe until I was there. Chiu Ming told me dat he heard something frm somewhere n dat person had complaint about me . Nvm I guess I noe who cus when I was bak wif him u r like oops..... Haha. U will nvr get tis type of fwen in ur life . U will nvr experience wad I am experiencing or goin through. Only noe how to say about others y nt say about urself. B!tch u will nvr ever win me! If dat time I nvr help u will u get d highest score in d test? I doubt so. 2side face. C how long u can survive . Only noe how to say about others bad , r u doin a very good job? Nt really so pls jus do ur own things can le. 

31/3/14 we had once n it makes me hurt but on 13/4 he improved a lot n it doesn't hurt me any more. He was rite dat for d 1st it might get hurt n  after dat I will be enjoying. I really enjoy it. Haha, on 13/4 if I wasn't tired I think we can hav it for d whole nite w/o resting. I tot he could come over but he can't. Nvm I shall nt think so much on tis.

12/4/14 last time meeting

Maybe tis will be d last time we r meeting. I won't forget about u. U always in my heart.
Last time text like couple.

His last day at work

Had again on his last day of work. After he had been smashed at work n we went horny inside d ahu room dat we near start to kiss but after a while I finished my stuff n went home n I went to his hse. He told me dat he was horny bak den jus dat he control it.  

Was thinking about u n u texted me! Wow

maybe tis is wad i wan

maybe tis is wad i wan..... to let him hate me, to let him wont wan to look for me or stop thinking about me..... as i had make him n her broke up ....... nw they r fine n im here dripping bleed on d floor........ i noe there wont hav a machine to rewind everything to last time...... i noe is time to stop all tis stupid things n move on. i had make a fool out of myself in front of them n i guess they wont be my fwen/s wif me as they will think im a bitch...... who noes if im dare to love again as tis is d 1st time dat i had hurt myself thru love. tis is making me dying i really dunno wad can i do or wad to do . hope i can jus let everything go n dun c them forever if nt i really dunno wad can i do . he will be leaving us soon on d 27 march. tis will be d last time i c him n i hav no other reason to look for him anymore as i had messed everything up . there isnt any turning point at all for me . for him i dun think he will dare to look for me any more as i noe he loves her a lot n is more den me. i can feel dat his love towards me arent more den hers . i noe if i keep holding on im d only 1 dat is suffering n they will be happy enjoying their life...... so d only solution for me is to stop everything stupid n move on ! maybe i will find someone love me or maybe not i still hav to carry on my life no matter wad....... i noe i will be very upset nw..... it will feel btr some times ltr. hope tis will be d last time i post something so emo. i really dun like to cry..... but all memory jus keep flash bak n its making me upset n i noe i cant do anything to make him mine again as i had tried n i make him miserable . he dun even text me since den..... i noe that those happy times will always stay wif me jus dat i cant take it y he choose to stead wif me n nw i fall so deep n he jus left me like nth had happened to us! whenever i saw him it makes me think of d times we are tgt. hope after he left i wont hav tis feeling or maybe i will miss him more ..... i noe its time to let go ! i really hav to let go ! i really hav to..... hav to...... wish they can last long n be tgt till d end ! those he cant do wif me he can do wif her.! i always wanted to c sunrise n he nvr bring me to 1 n he brought her ! i wan soft toy frm him , he didnt giv me n he giv her. i noe i will nvr win her ! she has his whole heart ! really hav to stop all tis le ! ! I CAN LIVE WITHOUT HIM !!!!!

15/3/14 2am

Had tried it. I tot it would be salty but it is tasteless. He wondered y I am like tis n I told him previously oso like dat. N he got nth else to say. We had a sip before start. I dunno how to start it maybe his intention was to chat a bit den start n I was too 猴急to start everything. He said he had no energy to had d 2nd time but 1st time we had it we had 2nd time. N it hurt me too. I tot he dun like me dats y he do tis but den I realize dat he was drunk. After he got drunk he still will think for himself if it's me I will let it be. 

9/3/14

We had it again . He asked me out to buy his stuff at popular n went for a drink n k at civil centre . He chased me out again. 

6/3/14 unforgettable day

Had meeting in d morning before meeting went for hiring wif Vanessa n theviya. After d meeting we went to Vanessa hse to have steamboat after dat went to civil centre for k . Maxing Samantha lipping n boss oso go. It's really fun ! After dat went to his hse n he said he haven hav sex since he left me n we had 2 times in dat nite. Jus dat he wasn't dat gentle any more as he said we won't be tgt only sex . I won't mind but I think he won't look for me in a while guess by nxt week or month he will look for me. 

sam n cm had talked to me about forgetting about higher nitec as if i nvr succeed in higher nitec i will be wasting 2 years n 3 years in poly so they suggested to take up a private course outside and work full time in mcd as to save some money for d course dat i might like. i feel like y nt give it a try as i had alr wasted 2yrs before jus dat i will be getting a private diploma of 10k+ for a course dat d course might take up one or one and the half month to complete my course in order to get d cert. if i can get d cert n get pay i wont mind jus dat it will be more tougher den in sch as in sch they teach more on knowledge while private is more on projects. quite a lot of ppl said getting a private is more easier to get d cert but i hav to waste my money on tis cert for over 10 grands . isit worth it? i realy dunno. sam had shared dat her studies wasnt dat good so she choose tis path to get a cert on private which she is goin to end she course soon. if i were to choose the same path as her will i succeed like her? will i fulfill wad it is entitle? will i be able to cope wif work n projects at the same time? i really dunno

i dun hav to get transferred out if im a assistance mgr n cm said dat i wont get transferred if i can outshine thiviya n i said i cfm will do btr den her ! hope i can !

U think u r btr den me? U can do everything by urself uh? U think I octopus? If u can u do la when I was busy wif so many things yet u didn't even wan to help. I oso noe dat things is down did I didn't help? I nid to look after l2 n am I running production? No wor den? Knn nxt time u work I won't work. Since u so outstanding ma . So be it! Try me somemore

Who d fuck do u think u r ? So wad if ur sis bf is tis store rm?! Dun mess wif me hor! Knn

my feelings

this few days keep goin out n hav fun . went out outing wif huiqi, ivyn and kaisheng. meet in d morning n huiqi was late cus of traffic jam. after meeting at cwp we went to 888 to hav our brunch. after dat all went home to take our things n went to haw par villa . after dat went to nex to hav our dinner n after dat we went to 888 fairprice to buy some beer n snacks to slack at ivyn hse. after slacking den we all went home as all hav to work but im d luckiest as i work in d evening. tis few days i keep drinking n i used up all my money n i had to lent frm my mum. really bad. had failed my exam n i cant continue my study as my result is really very poor . hope i can get to higher nitec without waiting for 1 yr . really hope i can !!!

D scar

Tis scars will always remind me of how stupid I am on dat day! I will nvr forgets

24 nov 2013 i will nvr forgets about u !

i will nvr forget about tis day whr i got d scars on my arm !
d scars are awful n i dun like it ! i really dunno y am i so stupid n use d tong to put d metal thing in d oil in d batch cook vats ! im so so so stupid !! i will nt forgive myself for being so stupid ! hope d scars will disappear but i will always remember it on my heart !

Working m3 n boom again

I scream or shout doesn't mean I'm really angry or wad jus dat I nid to let out some of my angers, I will b fine after dat. Seems like it isn't d 1st time u saw me tis way n I really hav to learn to control dat. I should n I will! Jus learnt how to drawer change n do some of d service. Nt bad nt dat hard but I really dunno y LP said its hard?! Quite easy nt dat hard at all. Maybe I will get wad she mean nxt time as I didn't get d full stress nw. But even if I do I dun think it will be hard on me haha. Seems like quite a lot managers dun like LP. Haha

25 anniversary amk

Late for work n I took cab dwn waste money again. I was in d kitchen before goin to d DK . Didn't go for break when working n after work went dinner wif LP, Mery, huiqi n Doris. D event was okie but a lot of attachment staffs. Looks crowded frm outside. Took some pics but nt using my fone. Saw his family n they seems nt to look at me or talk to me even d baby. Hmm okie... Fine.... Haha..

Lonely ba

feeling lost

i feel so lost. i really dunno wad to do or wad can i do ! i noe dat keep on running away is nt a solution. i hav to go bak to sch n hav a normal life again ! i noe dat jus dat i really dun wish to do those things again n again . i felt like i dun wan to do all these things again .. i dun wan to study,work or stay home . i wish i hav lots of money so  i can run away from home run away from this play to other place whereby no ppl noe me or a place i dunno to live. i wanna start a new life ! if only i can . really dun wish to stay here n remember all those sad things dat had happened to me tis few months . i really cant take it. no one can help me even myself . all those r important but i jus dun wan to do it . i dunno la . lost in my own world le. hope i can get out of it soon , it had to be fast as it goin to d end of d year soon, exams coming real soon and i didnt even started on d revising. yeah nid to start revising ......

Guys r d same??

All guys are d same. Tot dat he would like me but I was wrong. I'm d one maybe or I just Dun wan to be left alone? I dunno. Maybe I'm too lonely Dats y. I should get used to tis feeling as No one will stay by ur side forever or even awhile. Understand.

When they noe u they will keep on talking to u but when they noe new gals they will change their attitude towards u. Or maybe I'm Nt even worth. Maybe.... maybe..

Do I really like him? He is d 1st guy that I'm comfortable wif. I can be myself when I'm wif him but I dun think I like him. I only noe dat I can find him n talk if I hav any problem. Hope he will keep his mouth shut of wad I had told him. 

Managing service area. Handling customer

Tis is my 1st time managing service area after being a manager. I'm panic n scare I will do things wrong or did something dat is nt suppose to do. But lucky I'm still okie with it. Things went okie but I feel stress when they keep on calling for manager n I can't help to do anything. I did try to help to solve some of the problems. Don't have enough ppl to do tis n dat making me a hard time n others oso. 1st time managing a angry customer as wanted to order a large coke but he had queued at the food collection area n he keeps can't get his order ordered. He was very angry. I didn't did a good job in tis part as I study service n yet I'm nt doin a good job in tis. Really d 1st time contacting wif real ppl n real situation. Hope the next time I will do a better job!!!! I find it interesting to work as a manager le as it is more challenging. Haha . Had learnt how to change CO2 tank as I wanted to learn it long time ago. I will ask. More questions now. Alvin oso said I'm playful. Haha. 

Went out for movie

Went out for a movie wif Ivyn for d 1st time. He went to buy iPhone 5c den went to buy fone cover n screen protector. After dat we went for d movie insidious chapter 2.

Thinking too much

U think too much liao la. Who do u think u r?  He is his a fwen to u. Dun even think about it. Dun wish to let it happen again. I really can't take it

Lost interest?

Maybe I had lost interest in study. Keep on dun Feel like Goin school but Just few more months n I will be Goin to higher nitec. Maybe I'm Just too Lazy. Tmr I will wake up n go school de

After so long nw I'm starting to watch my shows again. Long time nvr watch my dramas le. Feel so good . Even though I noe there is something missing but I will find something to do or think of something to make it okie. =) 

Weird dream

Dream about him n we had sex n I ask him about her age. O.o siao sia

My dream

I dreamed about him again. Tis time I was laying beside him n I ask him is he wif serene den I dunno wad he said weekdays n weekends. After dat I awake. -.- maybe I still can't forget about him. Still nid some time to forget about him .

8/9/13

Went for a drinking session wif Amy,ks,Ivyn,nh me. Ks was d 1st to dwn. He keep vomiting ard d place n Ivyn had to clean d place. He was very pekcey . Keep asking ks to sit up all dat. He even hit him on d face. Very scary but we had fun after all. Maybe next time we can hav tis session again after some time. I oso vomited quite a lot. True dat after vomiting I feel btr. Even injured my leg. Ks lost his cigg n Ivyn injured his face. Nh a bit gone case but still can manage to bring me n Amy home. After reaching hm I went inside room n sleep. 

Will be getting promote on d 16 sept to FM haha. Dunno how much will d pay be, help I can manage it well . Jus nw he shake hands wif me to congrats me suddenly feel like hugging him. I noe he isn't mine any more. 2person getting promote . 

My dream

Y would I dream of u ? Y would I remember my dream? Last time I won't dream about u or remember anything about my dream. Weird sia. I dreamed about I was watching tv n u sit in front of me n accompanied me watch tv when u alr very tired n fallen asleep den I said we go sleep ba when about to go into d room his mum was in d kitchen we didn't noe she was bak n she bought fwens along . Looks like aunty soo eng n aunty Susan . We were go into d room hugging each other . Very sweet n seems so real to me. Isit I miss him too much dat I dream of tis or its a random dream? I dunno. Suddenly feel so warm to c tis familiar face in front of me n being sweet to me. Hope it will really happen in life. Will it? Doubting ...

They went out for a date! Still say will ask me to go for a movie instead of me u find her! Ya . I reminded u ma. Good lo. Last long !! U happy can liao

Everything end on 16/8/13

It would be easy for u cus u alr gav up. I would nid some time to get bak up. I nid  u to support If can. Pls Dun treat me differently. We can be fwen!  Best fwen Maybe?  Haha. I will change to a better me. Will u support me? 

He said he will support me as a fwen. I noe dat he has a her jus dat dun wanna tell me. I long noe jus didn't make a sound. Until u said break up for d second time as u wanna be wif her. U said u won't be in a relationship for awhile but when I receive ur msg it giv me a feel dat u had her better den me n when I ask whr had I done wrong or nt doin well u said nth. Because u jus wanna break so u say everything is ur fault. Well as u promise to giv me a hug at Taiwan so we will c how things work ba. Hope we can be tgt again... Hoping.. 

15/8/13

Y tis thing again? Y u keep wanna break up? Y can't wait until after we come bak frm Taiwan den say? I tot we agreed on dat?? Y ? I jus dunno y! 

6/8/13

Finally can go his hse, slept well beside him. Jus like to sleep tgt . Make me feel very safe when I'm wif him, 

2/8/13

He came dwn to amk n waited me to end work . After dat we went for dinner n movie n he sent me home. After sending me home he walked home. We watched gain n pain . We ate teppayaki . It's more like a date den normal things we do. I love it . =) hope to get more of this, haha. 

Rejected twice for nt letting me goin his hse plus when I ask him things n can say nth. Ya la . Wif other gal can talk a lot ma wif me very boring Liao. I noe u dun like me is I'm d 1 keep pestering u ma. If u dun wan me just tell me again! I won't ask for it again! Makes me so angry !!!,! 

19/7/13

After breaking for d 4th day we went dinner tgt. I still love him but jus dat we r nt couple anymore . I jus dun like d feeling la. I wan u bak. Although is jus an hour of his time I really enjoy it! Still can say buy me a bear day is ur size . When I heard it I really can't tahan n cried it out. He said dat one of d aunty frm wdlm had passed away tis morning n ltr he is goin to pay respect to her. I said I can wait but he insist me nt to . After so long u oso nvr send me hm le. When we stared tgt u always send me hm de. Okie la u no time ma. Okie... Ya I only think about myself , if u didn't say will I noe how u feel!?   =(((( 

15/7/13

Isit really come to d end ? I dun wan tis I dun wan !! 

Said to meet me for dinner ind end didn't. Went out to hav fun wif fwen. Wanted to MSG u oso like can't den dun msg lo. 1day didn't c u alr still like dat.... Nvm......

Can't breathe

These few days I can't breathe properly . Went to c doc n d doc said its due to stress but I didn't hav any stress at all!! 

Ytd 29/6 went to Joey's N6 concert. It's really fun though I dun noe some of d songs but I really enjoy! =) 1 more week to sch reopen. Nt bad dat I had pass my cs n hoping other modules for next term will be fine for me. =) gotten 3.4GPA for d 1st 4 modules . Jiayou for another 4more!! 

On 13/6 actually wanna celebrate his bd wif him but he choose to go bak work as he said its important . After work we went bowling wif CW,Christ,LP. I think LP nvr play bowling before she keep aiming d drain. Cm n CW was playing curl ball n they r happily playing n they gotten d technic on playing curl ball. After playing 2 games n we went hm. I didn't go his hse. Next day went to his hse before meeting Christ for d concert . Used nh red bag to put my things n nj brown bag to d concert. Before I went to his hse I went to d bank to bank in d money dat ITE gave. ($750) hopefully can get it by tmr so I can get him a watch =) after meeting Christ , we went to bishan to hav our dinner . After dat we went den to d indoor stadium. It's fun at d concert . Most of d songs I dunno how to sing but I really enjoyed d concert n the time wif them !! After d concert we all went hm . Cm n I went bk for supper den went bak to his hse. Slept for 2-3hrs n we nid to go dwn to lavender to take d tickets for d coach he booked. We reached genting is about 3.40pm. He said lucky we r late if nt we nid to wait but after all we oso reach late n book in late. He said no diff. After reaching there it's cooling . After I unpacked my stuff n we took a nap before dinner. After dinner we went to play bowling . We had 3games of bowling. It's fun. After bowling we went to Starbucks for a drink n slack a while. After dat went bak to hotel n bathe den I sleep for about 2-3hrs before d movie starts . After movie we went bak to sleep . He said he didn't sleep well in d hotel n I disturbed him n nt letting him rest. I didn't noe dat he won't sleep on d bus if nt I won't disturbed him . Alr 1 day nvr c him le...... Miss him ... 

Ask me to go his hse at 1am . I'm here n he is still wif his fwens setting n happily chatting without remember I'm here waiting. Should wait n c wad time u will remember dat u had a date wif me . Jus wait !!

Ytd quarreled wif him. I kept said dun wan to meet him. But still did meet him . When I met him, he was busy talking on d fone n msg-ing . I noe he is busy wif work but I really felt sad. Cs paper was quite easy but I felt dat I got a lot of questions r wrong. Hope I can pass my paper. When movie after dat , watch hang over part 3 quite nice n quite funny. Went to his hse after dat n he made me milo when I said I was hungry. We even make out after dat. Haha. He said after so long cfm got a lot. Haha. In d morning I didn't went out wif him , I stay at his hse while he went to work. I went to open his drawer n I saw I lots of letter from fwens n ex. WT n him even plan to hav a baby tis yr . Am I really I third party? Did I do wrong? His mum oso dun like me. 

BD celebration for cm

Morning didn't go work n stayed hm . Staying hm is boring n I texted him n he said something like serve me right. I didn't reply him his msg n he texted me to ask me out for lunch. After eating he said wan to watch movie but in d end oso nvr watch any movie. Went to his hse n waited for his family members to be home to eat dinner n celebrate his dads bd. after eating lunch at about 4+pm I can't eat any more at d dinner. He told me he is goin for a drink wif his bro n fwens when I said I wanna go n he shouted NO!!! Dun wan me to spoilt ur fun right I noe. Got pretty. Girls at there ma . U can enjoy all u wan !! 

A gift from him. He bought it from Korea. A bottle of perfume n a jar of face mask. 

31/5/13 honors day evg.

getting certificate in evg for d last time . I was so nervous dat my both of my hands r so cold! 1st time it happened to me like tis! 2day he came bak to SG le . Goin out to meet him soon. After 5 days nvr c him alr , ltr I wanna hug him =)

Finally!!

Using FaceTime to chat when he is at Korea. 2days nvr c him n I use tis to c him n hear his voice. =) tis is d only way to c n hear him.

2nd time dinner wif his family.

26 may 2013  went to his hse for dinner before he fly off to Korea. I reach his hse about 6pm . I was scare to meet his family but 2day I dun feel so scare after chatting wif his sis. His sis was a teacher, tuition teacher... We ate steamboat for dinner n after dinner I help to wash up all the things. I didn't cook anything so I have to do something to make myself useful. Haha. Hope they won't like me.... I feel like his mum dun like me , every time we met she won't smile at me..... So scary.  

They went management meeting n after meeting they went into Malaysia for massage n dinner. He sits very near to her. If I nvr c I won't do any thing now saw le ..... Makes me so angry!

Waiting list

1. Last on d list again. U ask me out but ended up u wif them. Next time jus dun ask me any things dats u can't cfm. Really hate d feeling

Upset over u

Jus wan to meet u oso so difficult. Whr got fair if only when u free den find me? When I nid u , whr r u? Really feel tired of it le. Feel like I'm a part time girl friend to u like I'm worthless. Feel so upset. Been crying for 2days le..... U said wan to meet up for a movie ite u wif them until very late. Wan go ur hse to acc u oso hard. I really dunno how le.

Panda

U place my gift n her gift tgt? Meaning we both r important to u? Or u jus dunno whr to put n any how put wif hers? Shouldn't hav gav it to u to make myself upset. No point......

Complaining

We nvr talk much 2day as he work until 11plus den we went out to eat wif Kel,jas n CW at Yishun. Our only private time was on d cab when there are no others was ard. I rest on his shoulder but I nvr share wif him my things. Wish to spend more time that but he is very busy . D more time I spend wif him he will feel more tired as he had worked for so many hours n still mid to entertain me n get lesser of rest too. I really dunno how or wad to do. I jus wanna spend more time tgt. D only time we can spend time tgt is to go to his hse but sometimes we dun even got time to chat n u hav alr alseep. I run like d way u looked at her. It's different when u look at me. I dun like dat. U even nearly forgotten about me n I was like siting there wait n wait n wait. They went in to look for u n nvr inform me dat u all had ended d meeting . I was like a dumb dumb jus to wait for u to end n go hm tgt . Making me cry when I think of tis. Am I doin d right thing??  I really dunno.

mistake

ytd i was doin expeditor, lp was doin line2 alone. i  a few orders from line 2 and i was calling for product from her line. i dunno if she can hear me or nt, waited for 400s my product mc dbl still nt out yet n d customer was like waiting for nth. there are 2 persons at line 1 n no one help her to do her products . all her products are all jammed ! after shouted for d 2nd time i lost all my patience n i shouted really loud in d counter area . i called line 1 to help her to do her products as i nid the products. i noe my tone was harsh cus all my orders are all red n everyone was waiting for me to give them product to settle d orders. nxt time i hav to be more patience n i hav to communicate more instead of shouting for it. i had learnt my mistake from this event.

30/12/12

went to sakae for dinner 

Went arcade after having dinner 

lunch dat he cook =) 

really like it =)

setting up for the table that he bought ytd @ IKEA

when its done =) 

he done it all by himself 

after so long finally got a pic tgt !! 

After reached hm =)

morning actually wanted to go his hse but i woke up late n went to his hse late. after buying the ingredients i went to his hse straight . after reaching his hse, he was busy doin his paper work n listening to radio . i was there to accompany him n had lunch wif him . he cooked dishes , i like d pork wif toufu very nice ! taste like my grandma's cooking =) after so long still can find someone who cooked like her =)

i stayed at his hse until 6pm den i went home . after went home i cook noodles . after eating i went to sleep . after wake up den we went for a movie . the name of the movie is "Jack Reacher" nice show . haha. 

before watching d movie we went to coffee bean to hav a drink . we bought the drink into d theatre . he place it inside his bag . he bought d ticket for couple seat n beside us was 2 guy n when they walked in we were like tis is couple seat r u 2 couples? haha 

after d movie den he send me home n he went running near my hse 1 round den run home . cool dat he can run for 35mins ! jus finished reading some of his blog but nt all can be view , not sure y...

Goin to bed nw . Good nite =)

walao eh ! there is a cat outside hse aiming to eat my hamster ! hope later my dad will make it go away ! if not my hamster will be gone again ! =(

jus finished wrk . jus nw was very busy working cus managers from our store are going for a store meeting. so d crew leaders have to help the attachment managers to look after the crews . It wasn't that easy to handle the job that has been pass to you and still have to look after other people while doing your own things . When i was doing fries, i still can see what are the counter crews are doing but when i was doing expeditor i cant really do much as i was too busy . Some more when the peak hours are over , the counters crews were going home or they went to break. Some more they had lesser and lesser people in the counter area. When customers in , manager ask a runner to open a counter and i was the only runner to run 3 counters . The managers only help for a while and walk away to help kitchen while counter was jam . After serving all the customers i was too tired and it was about time to go home . When it was my time to go home , customers in again so i have to help them to clear the customers . After finished serving the people , it was my turn to go home. After i punch out , i went to break with ong , we had a little talk . She said that i am good at controlling my temper , cus when managers didn't help i was very angry. Ong is a nice person . She praised me for the second time ! =) After a long day , that was the most happy thing i felt . Hope to hear more of those things .

jus finished watching 'The other truth' (真相).
nice show . its about laws n somethings about black .
I like this show . like all the actors n actress too !
quite funny n fun but interesting . =)
i scare that i will forget shows that i watch so i write down about it .

feeling so bored . nothing to do . after watching so much show oso feel so bored. i wanna go out n play but no money to go . y ?
i dun wan to wrk
i wan play
y i dun hav d responsibility to wrk?
i oso dun noe y i cant focus ?
argh!!

got promoted to CL on 16/8/2011. but lp get promoted too. y i hav to wait for 3months n u dun nid to wait? when did u went for the test? nvm , i wont lose to u . i will win u by exams , when i finished schooling i will win u on d salary! cus u nvr finish ur study n somemore wanna act in front of so many ppl! . no shame sia u . i dun mind u said i hav less money den u do , but i will earn more nxt time when i finish my schooling! ya , u may noe alot of things den i do but nt really all ppl will like ur attitude! only noe how to call ppl do dis do dat , shout at ppl , do u think ppl will like it? somemore hit ppl ! ..... i will beat u on finishing my CLDP 1st den u ! i will ask more managers den u do ! i will be having a lot of manager fwens soon ! kavi will help me too ! =)

wow , jus finished watched The Rippling Blossom (鱼跃在花见)。 very nice show ! i love it , some more it make me cry , make me angry too ! i like show are like dat . make me love to show some more of the show ! Happy Birthday Singapore ! =)

ytd got a mad woman scold me ! said i go out wif her daughter den she became bad . lol she is already very bad , somemore she is the 1 who teaches me n my sis all the bad words ! somemore ur daughter called me n my sis to ton wif u after work , somemore said i told her nt to go sch . did i said dat? i did asked u ur mum allow u to ton , u said she said can , i ask u go sch , u said nvm de , would get scold de . somemore still keep telling ppl dat u went to ite simei take wad course ! lol , all crap !!! like wad only , still ask ppl for money! too angry to say liao arh ! .............

not feeling well still nid get scolding from others ! what the hell ! ! in the morning i did call n said i cant work , but u say can so i said can , but after awhile i call say got exam cant go den u said okie , u like dat to me , nvm u dun come work. no other choice . how long u didnt go sch liao? it's diff from the time when u all are in sch ! i hate to work ! !!!!!!! Some more 2moro still got exam , nw nt in the mood to study , prepare to fail ba !!!!

jus now went to 768 wif Joanne n YiTing . after they went to eat n buy bubble tea . Joanne when to find his god bro . YiTing follow me to meet liyana . After awhile YiTing when bak . Liyana n i went to woodlands centre to buy high heel , but cant find the one she wants . But she did bought something else . she bought a skirt and a shirt. long time nvr hang out wif them ! wish we will be like last time , but the time wont stop n wait for u ! when we hang out , we will be toking the different things ! no more fun like last time . if that time i was not dat stupid dun go sch , i will be in the same class n toking the same topic liao ! but nxt time we will hav the same thing to say liao . pls wait for me , im behind u all ! pls wait ....

jus remember dat ytd when i went to the toilet , a guy in the lady's toilet ! when he came in he opened the door and bang the door against the door , when i looked at him he keep on looking at me . after i looked away , he walked behind me and said girl ... ugly . i didnt really listen to wad he had said , and i faster wash my hands and faster walk out of the toilet ! very scary sia ! he is tall and scary !

very full ! jus finished eating mcd ! stomach goin to burst ! but long time nvr eat until so full liao ! somemore everytime i pay! nxt time u pay ! =)

jus watched finished pu song ling （蒲松岭）nice show !
now just starting to watch (Into Thin Air ) , nice show .
its about ppl keep on missing and about the world end . (ep1)

nw im watching a show call pu song ling (蒲松龄) nice show , last time haven watch finish n i watch other show , now free watch back the show . Going to watch finish ! =)

jus watch finish Show Me The Happy (依家有喜) .
it's a lovely show . i love it , but it had finished , time fly . 80 episodes . wish there are more happy , funny and love story ! i love love story ! =)

2day nvr go sch, stayed at home to play computer until very late!
2moro still nid to go bak sch . hais .
still nid to go work.
wish everything will be fine . =)

it's been a long time nvr see bernice liu show , she is very pretty ! really long time ! haha , she is sooo slim!! if i can be so slim i will be happy !!!

just came back from work . Tell you something very funny de!!
Just now during Value Lunch i was doing runner , a lady beside my counter digging her nose !!!
when i was looking , she still dig then i told my cashier to see , my cashier said eee. haha ! Dam Funny !!

china anuty and singapore aunty quarelling

Today i went to work as per normal . Always do counter or runner , boring of it !!!
i had a early break cus Raymond ask me to go as there are not many customers and there were alots of crews.
When it came to Value Lunch , a Singapore aunty n a China aunty doing fries together . But the China aunty don't like to being ordered to do things other than manger order.
I heard a crew said the China aunty keep asking the Singapore aunty whether need to drop fries or not , then the Singapore aunty said whenever i ask u to drop the fries u drop and dont keep asking me as im so busy packing fries. Then i dunnoe wad really happen, but after a few moment they started to shout at each other , i was doing cashier in counter 14 so i really cant hear wad they are saying. After they start to quarrel more louder , one of the manager ask the China aunty to go inside the crew room to cool down, but after a while the China aunty came out and shout at Singapore aunty said : " Dont u think u can bully me ! " Singapore aunty replied: " u are a grown up , how can i bully u ?"
That was when im taking fries. They were very fierce. No one wants to give in . After manager talked to them , they did cool down, the China aunty went for her break (im nt sure but she really was eating when i saw her) but when i was about to go home i saw the China aunty walking inside the kitchen , taking her belonging, dont know where she wanna go .

i really hate it when ppl can act so good in front of u but when u walk away or dun care liao den will say bad things about u ! !!!! MAKE ME SOOOOO ANGRY TO LOOK AT IT!!!!!

1mth holiday

1mth hoilday is going to end in a week time. Hope to have a longer holiday. Homework is all im doing now, hope to finish everything by today. Wish me luck .

i really dunno y u become like dat?
y a little bit of things u will take it to heart??
y cant u jus dun care so much??
do u noe u make me very hate u??

not sure what to do , keep having headache and feeling sleepy everytime.

2day we perform guitar again ! But 2day is perform for lower sec .
FUN ! if next time got chance i want to go ! =)

2day in school was okie, nt too bored n we , the whole class, sang a happy birthday song to miss han and she was very happy ! But she said her birthday was over , and thanks you .
After school when i going to cross the road , a sec 1/2 boys were playing with a basketball near the road n when i going to cross toward the central side , the ball roll on the road n i help them to take after that he said thanks to me . im so happy !
2DAY IS A HAPPY DAY ! =D

i got 1st in maths , at first very happy . after a while, i think this isn't a happy thing to say .
NT is easy , but i got 1st my mum nvr say anything but onli money , keep saying can get top 10% den got money , hais . nt happy!!!

2day just had a science test , don't know whether i will pass or fail.
I'm scare, 1st common test after i went back to school .
Hope i would fail until so terrible . =)

sien P nt in the sch!
still nid to wait for him to come bak from holiday.
dunnoe can go bak sch to study or not!
headache!!!

after so long nvr wake up early .
not as sleepy as i thought .
on monday , my sis n i nid to go sch mit P.
dunnoe can study in that sch or nt, very anxious.
later work overnite, dunnoe will be fun or not, hope it will .

y every time i watch love shows , i will cry like hell!?
i really dun understand!!

ytd karen , liping sangeetha , aitze and me when to lantern festival celebration .
when we reached there , there were quite alot people .
the time we reached there was 6pm plus but the event start at 7pm.
after we set up all those things, then we start to sever them the orange juice .
aitze said i have to help her hiring people.
so after serving some time , liping and me when to ask people .
but liping had asked alot of people but i only manage to get one to work .
hope dat person can work, den i will can get $10 from aitze .
ytd the PM , Mr Lee Hsien Loong, did came down .
first time see him so near.
n aitze saw a handsome guy, he is PM 's body guard .

2day im in the happy mood!!
when i 1st start work , i'm doing l1 .
after half an hour i went out to do counter.
when i started to smile at people, they smile back to me .
It makes me more happy when i smile =)
now i have more chance to work in the kitchen!
i like to work in the kitchen , more fun in there =)
now i also have to work almost 8hrs everyday .
tired but i think will have more money.
spencer 2day also told me to learn more station knowledge , i think i maybe can become a CL .
hope to have that day to come true ! =)

y do other can share their hearts so easily??
y cant i ?
y every time i wanted to share , no one i can find?